Awful Year Ahead

Dear Diary,

So, life hadnt been turning out 'great'. Of course it hadnt. Geez, what was i thinking? Life from the start of the year 2008 has never been great. Grounded to the ground. I'm ban from everything! Mum says if i do not get good results for my first term, im like ban from seeing my friends. How lame & stupid is that? That is impossible & unfair. I've been already punished enough. I dont even see much of my friends anymore. And she says she wants to ban me? I would LOVE to see her try.

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Not only that. If my grades dont go up, im even ban from any activities in school. Meaning i cant attend any club meetings or whatsoever. She's gonna take everything i have left from me. Like they all say, 'life is unfair'. It's been living hell for me. And its gonna last for 2 very long years. Kill me.

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But i found a solution on how to see my friends again. Well, this year, since S was separated from me, we found a solution to our problem. We both joined the same club, uniformed club & sport club. So, if there is any meeting or activity, we would be together. S is like my soul sister. I can never live without her! So, this year, i would be really busy & active in sports & clubs. It's gonna be a great year, not including the fact that im alone most of the time & in the same class with those drop-outs.

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One thing i hate about those drop-outs is that they are total copy cats. They copied all my homeworks, they copied all my answers. That really annoys me. And they have no manners at all! Not even abit. Especially the Indian girls. Dont call me racist cause what im saying is a fact & the truth. I loved them Indian girls in my old class. They were so filled with life & adorable. Little sweethearts they are.

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Cant wait till the torture ends. Teachers are beginning to like me & that annoys me too. I dont want anyone thinking im proud or smart. I hate it when that happens. I'm to say a humble person? Well, i dont know. Im pretty vain at times but since im in that forsaken class, i rather be humble & mind my own business. Really hope things turn out better. At least better. A little better.

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Always love,

unidentified

Sucky 1st FEW days of school

Dear Diary,

As obvious as it seems, school has already started. Sure, enough like my prediction, i had the worse days of my life! Even the first day was a nightmare to me. Its like walking to your own funeral. I was in fact placed in a very good class & i mean VERY GOOD! But then, mum thought i wouldnt be able to keep up with the tough subjects they have in store. She said she doesnt want to make another mistake like she did to my sister when she allowed my sister to proceed in the class she was situated into. So, just cause of mum's decision, she asked me to transfer to the 2nd lowest class! What the fuck right?

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It was like dooms day for me. I was devastated to the max. I was immediately separated from my friends. Especially me best friend! Now, im in the 'drop out' class with no friends or whatsoever. I actually find it hard to concentrate in that class, due to the amount of noise those 'drop outs' make. I was about to lose my mind. The only thing i could do when there isnt any teacher around is to draw. I drew afew stuff on those few days. I was bored to death!

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Moreover, i couldnt really concentrate much on my studies euther. But, in this case, it is due to the lousy-slash-boring teachers i got. pffts! And they call themselves teachers. Well, not all teachers that taught me are like that. Only a few arent though. The worse still is my English, Science & Moral teacher. Too boring to handle.

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Firstly, English teacher was like friggin lousy at english. Though she speak 'okayy' english, her grammar sucks! For instance, today i had english class. We were doing grammar today(present tense). There was this sentence, 'Nobody _____ to be criticised.' Well, obviously the word in the blank should be, 'likes'. But my dork-of-a-teacher said the answer was 'like'. The word 'nobody' is singular, NOT plural! Wut the hell?! I told her the answer was 'likes' & she said i was wrong? Fuckerr! & she call herself an english teacher. pffts, pfftss, PFFTSS!!!

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There this other sentence, 'It _____ her almost an hour to write a letter'. Yet again, the obvious answer is 'takes' but once again, the 'too-smart' teacher insisted it was, 'take'. Again, she corrected my 'imperfect' grammar. What a loser! Another thing is that she talks to us as if we were complete retards, but i cant blame her on that though. I feel like im the only smart one around. Serious. No one there could speak proper english. Tsk tsk tsk.

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Anyways, moving on. Science teacher was also another loser case. Science, as we all know is written in english now adays. So, we learn science in english. Teacher would speak both english & bm in class. That is understandable as mostly everyone couldnt understand english. The problem is that she speak more bm that english. Today i understood her reason. It was obvious that she sucked at english. The way she pronounce the english words are awfully, entirely WRONG! Goshh!! Was like laughin my arse off! It would be even better if my friends were there. We would be cursing, criticizing and laughing our arses off! Miss those days/moments.

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Moral teacher next. Ive got nothing to complain bout this teacher actually. Just that she's boring & she bores me. And she's like friggin fierce. Life is so hard without my friends. Without them, life is dull & boring for me. School sucks without friends.

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Always love,

inidentified

Cheers 2008!

Dear Diary,

Its already 2008. Funny, how time flies. Cheers to the new year. Speaking of cheers, its S's birthday today. Cheers to you S. Looking forward to celebrate your Sweet 16 with you. Have a great one babe! You've earned it! Enjoy & party. Congrats to S btw, who's about to get a drumset finally. You go girl!

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A new beginning awaits me. A new joruney. A new adventure. Terrified & afraid but excited. Forward & onward. Just keep moving along the narrow & rocky road. Looking up to God always. Wise words from N,

"God gives us a task just to test us and allow things to happen. But if He sees that we cannot handle it, He would push that task away and give us a new one. He would never place a task on us that we cannot take."

Thanks for the words of encouragement, N.

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Happy 2008! Let's party!

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Always love,

unidentified