Its been awhile since i last wrote. I have finally made my decision after long months of thinking. Im going to accept him. I dont know how it'll go but its worth a shot right? What's life without taking a little risk? I found my eyes glued to him almost all the time. Maybe i do love him afterall. No shock. I dont want to regret letting him go. So, time will tell how it'll end.
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Lately, ive been feeling like a total outcast. No one's there when i need them. I could no longer talk to anyone anymore. I barely talk much anymore anyways. Just another sad story, a sad case. Thats just how my life is; sad. Dont take me for a brag though. Im just saying. I do accept the fate God left me, i really do. But its just that i cant really handle it somehow. Weak, thats just who i am. I just hate the fact that im being pushed around like a puppet. Attached with strings. Afterall, i am human you know.
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Not that im complaining, im just releasing everything that has been boiling inside me. Teachers wont stop bugging me. Wont they just leave me alone?! Homeworks piling up every second. Stress! I hate being hate by teachers but i also hate being liked by them. Why cant they just take me as a normal student? Gosh! Shall i explain further or my weirdness? Well, okay. You see, if you're being hate by a teacher, she'll/he'll be aiming you & shooting you all the time in class. Not only that, she/he might find an excuse to minus your exam marks. My fucking english teacher always had something against me starting from day one. And looked what happened? She gave me a half mark for a 2 mark question in the current examination. My friend, on the other hand from another class, got full marks for that question & my answer was exactly that same as hers. Earlier, i did ask my teacher about that question & she said my answer was not specific enough. Yeah right. Screw her! On the other hand, being liked by teachers is a nightmare as well. You see, if a teacher really likes you, lets say cause you did really well in the examination or something. She/He would have high hopes on you. And everytime in classes, when he/she asked a question, they always expects you to answer it. They'll stare at you, waiting for you to answer. If no one answers, she/he would ask for your opinion and that sucks! When you do not know the answer to it, they'll get all disappointed & gives you the look. Darn them teachers.
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Well, no one said life was fair. Just gotta keep moving on i guess.
Till next time.
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Always love,
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